I’ve been wanting to write a year-end article – tackling about what were my highs and lows the past year – but I was too preoccupied to even sit down and make one. So, after 11 days since the year changed, here I am. Finally, got some time to think about my 2017. Make some sort of reflection and just be grateful for everything I got from last year.
Looking back, my year started with readying my heart – well, my totality – for married life. I was busy with the wedding preparations, making sure every detail was well-attended to. I juggled work, preparations, tending relationships, and so much more. I was like – but way to go from being a superwoman.
While I was trying to be a superwoman, I realized and learned so many things along the way. I discovered myself even more. Well, maybe that happens when you know you are adulting – more so, you are transitioning from being a single woman to a married one.
I realized life is easier when you share it with people. Yes, not only talking about my now husband but your family and friends too. I was used to doing things on my own. When I was preparing for the wedding, though, I realized allowing other people to help you will make life a breeze. I learned to trust other people. I trusted their ideas, their opinions, their words. I let go of my paranoia about this and that. What I got from it? Well, a beautiful day.
I learned to choose my battles and let go of things beyond my control. I have this perfectionist side in me, but, I learned to accept that there is no such thing as perfect. You can only do so much, but at the end of the day, there are things you have no control of. Should they fail, you just have to shrug them off. Getting sad or dwelling on negativities will not help – you will only loose the good possibilities.
The year that was brought so much good and bad in me. I realized I am really not good at budgeting. Yes! I thought I mastered it, but marriage made me realize, I wasn’t. Well, not the way I thought I was. I thought I was too independent I cannot handle having someone around me, worse, having someone to attend to. Well, I was wrong. I actually love having my husband around and attending to his needs. I can actually be a domesticated wife.
I am a self-confessed introvert. It freaks me out when I am with people I do not know. I could hardly start a conversation, but marriage changed that. I had no choice. I had to exert an effort to get to know who my husband loves. I had to come out of my shell and learn to communicate with other people. I had to get out of my comfort zone. You know, you can’t always choose who you want to be with or just stay at home.
Obviously, with all that I’ve said, it boils down to – marriage changed so much in me or maybe it was innate in me. I just thought I can’t do all of these but I actually can.
My 2017’s highlight was when I got married. Everything that has changed in me is because I chose to answer to that call. So far, still in the process or learning and getting use to the new life. I actually cannot wait how 2018 will be though I envisioned it to be more and more adulting. I think if 2017 was great, this year will be greater. So much to look forward to.
I am thrilled and excited. I really hope the Lord will bless the desires of our hearts and make some of our couple dreams come true this year. Yay!